Bliss A tribute to Donne

The sun rays fall on her naked body
her sweat glistening like pearls.
I crawl up beside her
my lips upon her.

She gives a soft shudder
as i reach for her.
Her lashes are drawn
her gaze coy.

I look in her eyes
and see innocent love.
As we embrace
her fears are gone.

The grass feels soft
nature is with us.
I plant another kiss
upon her lips.

She is now bold
her pace increases.
I am at her mercy
a cold sweat upon me.

She is young and pure
like fallen snow.
Yet she knows the game
a twinkle in those fiery eyes.

Now as dusk settles
and our bones ache.
I stand and take her hand
to walk away from the forbidden land.

God is in her beauty
God in her touch.
I see a passing dove
as a symbol of my true love.

Truth

Don't cry on my shoulder
I will not wipe your tears.
Your tenderness will not melt me
I will not break.

I won't hold your hand and walk with you
I won't cherish any dreams
For me your existence is a void
Yours charms won't work
I see through you.

The rain won't make any difference
nor shall spring.
I know not how to love
an emptiness fills me up.
The planets play havoc.

Don't wait for me
I shall never return
once gone
forever gone

Our worlds are different
I dwell in darkness
you in light.

I am not what i seem
far from truth
I spin a web of deceit all around
Hell is my heaven

Darkness forever envelops me
rendering me impotent
I have no feeling
a dark numbness is upon me

My words are lies
my actions sins
I know i am wrong
but there is no way back.

You believe I'll change
how wrong are you
I am not loyal to my blood
yet you trust.

Leave me alone
for i am a disease
i feed on happiness
grief is my domain.

I see the world
as dark as night
the chaos lies within me
so does the cure.

I am a fallen angel
evil dwells within me
No good can come from me
No happiness ever.

My words are my crime
I talk in puzzles
i am god's mistake
I am the devil's pride.

Question

I know not how to live
without thoughts in my mind.
I see everything in a different light
each moment a puzzle.
I have been told not to think too much
but therein lies my existence.

My desires are few
yet far away in some distant land
my thoughts lie.
I search for the truth
my hand stretched out
my eyes searching.

I do not know the end
I know not the beginning.
life is puzzling.
but with my end near
i shall sleep with peace

Me-A verse

I prefer to live by the philosophy
To view the world with open eyes and an open mind
To think and speak and act as if I’m free
Little else can mean a thing
I'm the only one of me

Purpose

The question of existence is haunting to the human mind.It borders on self reflection and contemplation of the inner soul.They say that the yogis of ancient India could spend hours on the question of self realization.I envy there life and i envy the knowledge they possess.I am no extraordinary human being,i am just an ordinary human being searching for answers that will help me define the purpose of my existence.Inner realization of truth is the ultimate victory of mind over body,of the soul over the self.

To finds one's purpose in life is very important.I dread the moment when death takes me and i would have lived a life without purpose.To live is not merely to breathe,it is to take in every moment of your existence as a blessing,as god's will for you to do something.Each man is different yet absurdly same when it comes to the question of identity.Does the man next to me not feel pain,sorrow,grief,guilt,desire and happiness?What really separates us are the deeds we do in life,the actions we perform and the emotions we betray.

I talk now of redemption,of glory and of my tryst with destiny.It is true that we reap what we sow,we get what we do and what goes around comes around.No one is questioning the existence of karma.But it is equally true that sometimes the hardships in life tend to grow stronger and one finally begins to wonder about the purpose of life.Marx was right when he said that religion was the opium of the masses.I fall,therefore,I pray.The fallen and the weak take solace in religion,in philosophy,when life's struggles become overbearing.The weak wallow in a pool of self pity,cursing their very existence and questioning god about the miseries of their lives.

The great men who lived,the ones we remember and also the ones we don't,are truly god's children.I talk about the great poets who left verses of life behind,of writers who are now immortal because of their words of wisdom,of fallen soldiers who were lions and of countless other men and women who spent their lives trying to leave the world a better place,to leave it better than they had inherited.They were lions in this world of gloom and despair,holding their own in an eclipse of darkness,inherently confident of the glorious future ahead.To remember them would be an insult to their memory,for they were men of action.To truly cherish their memory,it is imperative that we go ahead in life,to rid society of evils and to to truly end what they had begun.
That is my purpose.

*The future is so bright that it is blinding my eyes*

Past Chronicles

I long for the lost summer
golden rays upon my porch

I long for the lost blue sky
whose beauty charmed my mind

I long for the lost lush green grass
whose touch made my feet tingle

I long for the lost laughter of my family
whose joy made me weep

I long for the lost charm of the evenings gone by
when curious winds used to make me smile

I long for lost goodness in my heart
which showed through my sparkling eyes

I long for the lost touch of my grandfather
whose wisdom made me wise

I long for the lost love for the world
in whose future i used to trust

I long for the lost dreams
in the lap of those i used to sleep

I long for the lost friends
whose names are etched upon my heart

I long for the lost days
when beauty existed everywhere

I long for the lost joy
of seeing a rabbit blush

I long for the lost habits
gone without a trace

I long for the lost long walks
where ideas were born

I long for the past
as i long for the future

The Soul Health

The pain of loss is unbearable.When i was young,i used to curse the gods and tempt fate.I used to mock the absurdity of the universe.Now the joke is on me.Each day is search for identity,purpose and redemption.What will it take for the gods to forgive my sins.With fate against me,i feel this pressure build up in me.Nothing seems right,nothing seems good.Happiness is all but gone.Every moment seems like eternity.This is destroying me from within,my body,my soul and my mind.I fall from a cliff each day and with blood in my mouth,i can't take solace about it being a dream.

I clearly did not intend this to happen.No matter how hard you strive,no matter what you do,you shall lose if the gods don't intend to smile upon you.Where did i go wrong in life?Am i never to witness the jubilation associated with success?My fall in life is purely an aftermath of my own indifference towards work.The fault lies entirely within me.I am the one to blame.Hence,I must suffer.I do,though,hope that I learn something from these years of pain and sorrow.I hope I shall rise like the proverbial phoenix.

I,on the bright side,haven't lost hope.I still have my flame up and burning.The winds of fate couldn't extinguish it(no provocation intended).The fact of the matter is that i still long for the blue sky,for those glorious lost days,of happiness,of joy,of innocent laughs,for those days when i was me.As long as i shall dream,as long as i shall desire,there will be a day when i shall achieve.

My victory will not be marked by fireworks or great hooplas of joy but rather by the purity of my soul.The day i shall smile from within will be the day when my happiness shall truly begin.

The politics of Hamas

Israel is a tiny country surrounded on all sides by countries filled with people who hate them. I may be 1 off, but I think it's 56 Muslim countries and one Jewish country in the Middle East and Israel is being called the racist one because they won't let Palestinians flood into their country in greater numbers than their own, which would eventually displace them. And it is their own country, not just some 'occupation' and anyone who says it isn't is racist. It is populated by Jews cast out of all the Middle Eastern countries who faced genocide there. These countries, many of them filthy rich, fund Hezbollah and Hamas to eradicate the Jews in Israel like you would vermin. To combat all the weaponry and money funneled into their enemies hands, the US funnels money and weaponry into Israel. That's what I call a fair fight. Also, Israeli Intelligence is the best in the world for movements in terrorist organisations, i.e. the WESTERN WORLD NEEDS THEM, which means YOU NEED THEM in your comfy little world of judgment.

High Palestinian death toll helps Hamas, which is why they put the Palestinian people in the line of fire using them as human shields. What is very common is to confuse Hamas, whose base is in Syria and funding is from Iran, mostly, with Palestinian civilians. Hamas doesn't give a rat's behind about the Palestinian people. They seek to control and use them for the proximity of their country to their foe, Israel. And they're really good at it, because they've got all of you against Israel saying things like 'Hitler was right' (Amjad Shahani). Here are some examples of how they do it:
Hamas cuts off electricity and blames Israel saying they've run out of fuel when they have a month's supply
Hamas places Palestinians on top of munitions and blames Israel when they get blown up.
Hamas steals food, fuel & medical supplies and blames Israel and its 'blockade'.
Hamas binds members of Abbas's Fatah party and throws them off tall buildings for their defiance and willingness to recognize Israel's right to exist.
Hamas tells the Palestinian civilians, to whom all information they control, that the rockets they send into Israel are just 'fireworks'.
I can forgive the Palestinian civilians for not getting the true picture and making subsequent unfair judgment of Israel. All of you condemning Israel, on the other hand, have as much information to hand as you wish, and have no such excuse.

Israel left Gaza in 2005 and left in tact infrastructure, such as working farms, buildings and greenhouses, ready to employ Palestinians and enjoy statehood. Hamas destroyed it all and dug tunnels. They could have become part of the political process but wouldn't recognize Israel's right to exist and have routinely sent thousands of rockets into Israel since 2005. During the cease-fire, they took this opportunity to dig tunnels through which they could smuggle arms and terrorists. Why didn't they spend money on building hospitals and shelters for the Palestinian people they say they care so much about? Because then there'd be no dead bodies to exploit.

Hamas is a terrorist organization which uses schools and other seemingly stable and innocuous organizations as fronts to give them legitimacy to the outside world who knows no better. Most Palestinians know they are being used but can do nothing about it and if they do they face bloody reprisal from Hamas. Calls reporting the U.N. school as a launching point came from within Gaza from people who remained anonymous to avoid such reprisals.

It's horrible, yes. Everyone who instantly piles all the blame on Israel do not corner the market on compassion. Israel has learned the hard way that cease-fires allow Hamas to go underground. They have been dropping papers all over Gaza stating that they are going after Hamas and asking the Palestinians to evacuate their neighborhoods. Do not forget how this started: During the cease-fire, Hamas attempted a raid such as the one they perpetrated in 2006 which took Israeli soldiers hostage, one of which they still hold - Gilad Shalit. Israel prevented it and Hamas took this as their cue to re-start their rocket attacks on civilians.

So many have pointed out that so many Palestinian civilians have died, but so few Israeli civilians have died. This is because the Israeli government spends money on shelters and training for neighborhoods to prevent deaths. And they're very good at it. Practice makes perfect. All Israelis have to be in the Army regardless of class or gender. No such shelters and training exist in Gaza; why build them when all the dead bodies, exploited properly, get all of you on Hamas's side? Hamas is smart and you're falling for it - hook, line and sinker.

Vengeance

My day is near
my prey close at hand
he is unaware,he is joyous
my blow shall not be swift

I will make him bleed
i will make him scream
he does not know
that his life is now at an end

He won't die in vain
there will be glory in his death
and all my foes shall know
that the dark lord has awakened

All those who had wronged me
all those who had mocked me
fear the hour
for i have vengeance in my blood

I won't show mercy
my hand will be steady
these words are not hollow
my soul is on fire

Prepare yourselves for battle
for the moment has arrived
when you shall fade in dust
your wives shall be widows
your sons orphans

Your impotent god will not save you
your charms shall fail
with Satan on my side

I am coming to draw blood

Animal

All hell shall break loose
chaos shall take over
when i shall rule

I wasn't born this way
they prophesied about my greatness
but your loss made me an animal

I have lost you here on earth
and i know we are never to meet again
for your place is in heaven
while i shall burn in hell

Your touch is lost forever
and that makes me cry all night
your touch is lost forever
and that makes me an animal.