Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Don't Let Me Be Misunderstood

I don't need to explain my love
Nor ever mouth my loss,
For i know you know too
The beats that carry my heart.
Why must we ever be apart
Over doubts and conceits? 
I yearn for one syllable,
Of your lost voice,
Plunge in distant memories
Retrieve those primordial moments
Now gathered in misty mazes
And hazed histories.

Each moment of mine suffers
Under unlikely impressions
Of your departed presence.
I question the lamenting past
To retrieve the passages
Of glorious,sunlit yesterdays.
You own the coming future,
Own the might to make it right.
Weak are those who break bonds
Over pebbles of a hungry stream.
Come back and linger with me
Till the die is cast and breaths last.

Meandering Me

Sunday, June 27, 2010


In revolving doors
Of distant nights
I saw her twice.
Two moments
Or perhaps three,
Quite like no other,
Took my breath away,
As blood rushed
So did i
To steal another glance.

Cruel fate.
She disappeared
In ancillary crowds.
I searched,
Ineffectual life led since
Those two moments
Or perhaps three.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Hymn 1.22

Ragged dolls speak no more of redemption
Nor of love
That left its mark, etched on the soul
For eternities while shadows heave
Upon my closed eyes
That eternal silence of yours tears me apart
And closed chambers locked within buried grounds
Carry within them the arc of nebulae
Serpentine glances mean nothing
And also not the riches i possess
Flames sputter as i dissolve in your
World of nothingness.

Wrote this one years back on a back of an envelope, posting it now because a friend unearthed it recently.

Friday, June 18, 2010

Sun Dogs

Arduous are paths of rivers that have no names
Long are some journeys and Tigers can't be tamed
Some bridges can't be bridged for such is the will of law
Yours and mine
Mine and yours
Are some such treacherous tales.

Monday, June 14, 2010

Est queadam fiere voluptas (There is a certain pleasure in weeping.)

The first thing he noticed about her was her hair.She had her hair cut in layers with razored edges and sported long fringe bangs that she kept partially swept to the side and out of her eyes. She seemed to enjoy the purposefully styled messy look, which accentuated her kohl lit eyes.Her face was impassively beautiful,reminding him of frigid lakes he had seen when he was in St Petersburg,where a thin,almost invisible sheet of icy layer stopped every and any ripple that dared its presence.He was magnetically drawn towards the nape of her neck where a single mole rested languidly,oblivious of the effect that it was causing on a stranger's heart- his heart,a matter of fact.Slowly he averted his gaze,finished his single malt and casually walked over to the bar to order another,forcing himself not to turn back to gaze at the most beautiful woman he had ever seen.
 This is love,he thought,this is what it feels like.The maddening pace of his heart,bursting with euphoria of life itself,the cold sweat slowly trickling towards the back of his neck and the way his eyes had begun to sparkle.He felt strangely alive and had an inexplicable desire to laugh out aloud.For the first time in life he actually wanted to live with gay abandon and break all rules.Suddenly he understood why people took risks,why boys drove fast cars and girls broke rules,it was the majestic and grand feeling of being reckless-he was recklessly now in love with a woman whose name he did not know yet.

As shadows danced,the evening began to quickly pass.He thought several times of going up to her and talk but he couldn't muster the courage.It was simply impossible for him to go up to her say something and equally difficult to stand there and do nothing.All his entire life he never had any hesitation talking to anyone,he had charmed Councilors,smooth talked his way out of everything and even courted impossible women but today his tongue was dry and his palms sweaty.He was probably nervous for the first time in his life and it actually felt weird.He went over to the bar and ordered another Scotch.As the bartender poured a shot over two hazy cubes, he suddenly stiffened as he saw her standing right next to him.A faint scent of cedar and leather wafted towards him and he instantly recognized it as Anais Anais,a rare delightful fragrance, after all women fragrances were nothing new to him.He slowly turned his head as she walked away,hoping to steal another long amorous glance when he suddenly felt someone tugging at his leg,

"Daddy,mommy is looking everywhere for you",said Nysa tersely,his seven year daughter.

He affectionately picked her up and gave her a loving peck on her forehead.Then he set her down,let her wrap her small tender hand around his finger and lead him back to her mother,back to his wife and back to his loveless marriage of nine long years.He longed to look back and gaze solemnly at the woman with whom he had fallen in love with but he continued walking with a heavy heart under the leaden sky.

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Ab incunabulis

Thwarted by forces i do not see
I lie in chambers of earthen glee
Buried under fortresses of melting snow
I metamorphose in a demonic glow
Planets move in decreed planes
Grieve and lament the familiar Manes
Mendacity envelops virtuous all
And sinners fornicate in evening Balls
In every shattered hope i see
The last of tear filled seas
For Darkness took form of deity Light
Began its conquest of control and might
Villainy has now a new name
And with it
Lie the rules of the game.

Now let me come back to me
Take you away to the Arctic Seas
A place where it all began
Gods,Warriors,Man and Clan
This is the place where it will all end
Conceptual universes finally rend
I slowly feel alive and virile
Know not whether by craft or guile
As fused blood hastens to my loins
Triple Goddesses utter their final scream
Thy daughter erupts from splintered wombs
As sukra and blood penetrate my tomb
The Bethelean beast is now complete
For both Darkness and Virtue
Shall together taste defeat.

Eons of lifetimes now lay scattered
The mightiest fall slain and battered
Music plays beneath a drunken shore
Georgian lutes and goddess whores
My daughter and I walk upon red sands
Towards dried seas and sooty lands
For we are the ones whom prophecies failed
The universe never mattered,our visions hailed
Now we walk alone on broken twigs
Bathe in springs and consume figs
Sparkling brightly the sun too fears
Lest Father and Daughter doth come near
For I am he for whom the dead world cried
And by my side sleeps my Daughter Bride.
My dark seed rests in her virgin womb
The one that begot her in my dusty tomb
And my prodigal son shall breathe soon
I shall now smile while universes swoon.