Corner

I lie in a corner
swirling smoke
evading hope
fragmented
reaching out
to touch
feel
lust
but i fail.

Now i turn
to
pills
powder
magic
tribes
gods
women
i can't get up.

I now lie
wasted
again in
a corner
sniffing
snorting
sniveling
I don't try.

They come and
take me
away
they call
a man
my father
whores cry
i am burned
on dead wood

They heave a
sigh
i float
back
to my corner
my place
snorting
sniffing
dead.

The above is a new form of poetic expression with which i am currently obsessed with.I am inspired by haiku though one can see i have not followed it strictly.My usual way was not challenging enough.This particular poem uses some of my favorite images and since this is my first attempt,I have tried to keep it simple.Hope you like it.I surely did.

*FC Kahuna*

Things i do

In an alley behind my place
i saw his dark,aloof face.
He walked with a quiet ease
eying things with a mocking ease
He made me feel small
tremble within and shakily fall.

In him i sought a curious joy
gentle,seductive,coy
For passion ran too deep
and slowly love began to seep
As he walked along the mossy path
grief welled up within my heart.

I wanted him to look up
forget the world and come up
Teach me a lesson or two
about how the cow goes moo.
Be gentle and light
for this is my first night.

But he walked on to the unknown
shattering myths of despair sown
i screamed and grieved
tears of blood as my heart heaved
He did not turn back
for he did not look back.

I lay in a pool of dark blood
cringing to his memory like a slut
then i forced myself to stand
and go to the window
and watch another man.

Luminescence

Walk with me on a leaden night
of dewy stars and moonlit delight
move those parched lips
once sealed with a kiss
when roses seemed roses
and the skies were blue
surely then my love seemed true.

Walk with me and hold my hand
your bosom was my holy land
when i lied whilst you smiled
kittens from your closet mewed
while i made frantic love to you.
in your tears i seldom found solace
secretly scorning your virtuous pace.

Walk with me on an unknown path
through life's mists and fogs
remember and forget our past
for our fateless journey couldn't last
i am indebted to the eldoradian moment
when your voice had a mythical formant
life played with us two a joke
swirling of our emotions like yolk.

Walk with me on a day of possibilities
the moments which define our sensibilities
let me finally reach out to you
knowing me,maybe its not true
don't embrace me from within
don't trust my words yet
the creator has lost the divine bet.

Walk with me to an edge of a cliff
smile gaily for together we have
given life's chariot a slip
the gods scream in anguish
and fate slits its wrists
for we were thinkers but were misfits.

Strings of Chaos

The mind is restless,O Krishna
it dwindles each moment
whilst enveloping me in an illusion
of beckoning glories and riches.
I, in moments of luminosity
see and judge its true self
often forgetting its inference
of deceit and self preservation
Oh the lies it feeds me!!!
Abstractions and confusions
deductions and my delusions
To gaze within truly
brings out grief unsaid
and tragic wonder sweeps me
away from the self
Cries of loss are
now inevitable for
the enemy lies within me
Can one truly believe
the waves of thought
that pass within
body,mind and soul?
I long for the truth
yet petrified at the
loss of innocence
The question that deludes
is the one with which
life will truly conclude.
Questioning makes the self
more restless for then
the burden seems impossible
too much effort and no relief
Will such loss ever come
again at an hour of death?
Will the lost knowledge
ever return to its true master?
I ask you bluntly now
why bring upon thyself
such myriad of contradictions?
Is the center of life worth
the death that comes in moments?
I know nothing of you
nor of myself
You are a craftsman of chaos
and i am your plaything
Give me a moment of
willful realization and
with the beats of my heart
i shall conquer the unknown
The mind is restless,O Krishna......

Unborn

Quietly it lives within me
the secret of my child
unborn and residual
growing with each heartbeat
despair and lament
personified in existence

Its birth was fusion of
lost love and tainted blood
fallen men and exalted gods
dark deeds and mystic rites
curses and blessings alike.

Now its kicks my belly
while i scream in agony
of joyful pains lost in
sunshine's dark rain.

Lust in its soul ingrained
the falcon is hunted
and the gods now weep
over the coitus of loss.

As i feel death brewing
inside my womb of despair
i feel a furious blush
creep up my thigh
tingling and twitching
like a virgin's water breaking.

Dare i call it a child
and risk the loss of
hovering spirits divine?
hoping it sacrifices
my soul at the alter of lust.

Birth shall not matter
for it is now fused
within thy veins
longing and eternal pains

We are now one
trapping and deceiving
the world at large
moments strewn in chaos
from Persia to Laos.

Death might be the key
and i will never be free
as long as i breathe
i promise i will be a mystery.

One Who Doesn't Fall

Love is a fantasy of illusions
broken hearts and enveloping confusions
of loneliness that stems from desire
and stupid Cupid's childish mire.

Its charms are befuddling
grasping while cuddling
It will make life worthwhile
and make you truly smile.

Your worries will turn to dust
your anguish will now rust
but then it will formally deceive
bridging the chimeric sieves.

Then all will be forever lost
and then you might even remember Faust
overreaching and ambitious he was
and like your happiness,forever cross.

You might sit and weep
lament and truly grieve
but the one lost won't return
for love spares no one.

Love is an intoxication
surrendering the self and devastation
all powerful are its chasms
bliss and orgasmic spasms.

Like a wave of sweet pain
and emotion's torrential rain
sweep you off your feet
until you accept defeat

Let it come upon me
like all conquering Poseidon's sea
and i will show it a self
who won't fall in love
I will show myself.

All of love's Friends

I saw her once just by chance
and my heart wandered far and away
I offered her my hand and soul
but she mistook me and left me alone
I often say to myself
her lies a girl that suffered a loss
my love and my soul
I shall have someone else
for my heart lies in my hand
but she will shed a tear
when the truth reaches her ear
I say this today aloud
for you misunderstood me
and left me standing at the door
Now i will never have you back
for understanding you truly lack
I am free of love and her friends
but you dear girl,
will someday realise
that you lost love
and all her friends.

For the one who left

Sullen with rage and god's fallen grace
i walk on a path with time's dead pace
Truth and honor now lay forsaken
with memories of my past brutally taken.

I often glance at the many tombs
of unsung heroes and virgin grooms
emotions out of the ordinary and infants slain
for the coldest blood now runs through my veins.

Reach out to me with the your soft hands
and take me away from this mortal land
where ideas and identities are now dead
with shame,sorrow and lifeless dread.

I now stand forever divided in the realm of chaos
neither can cut a vein nor breathe forever
our conception lies in moments of joy
of history's battles and the fall of Troy.

Death,you surely reek pleasure
in man's wasted and corrupted measure.
Take me with you so i may embrace her
and leave behind shards of my existence forever.

I lament and shriek,shout and scream
for she left me halfway through my dreams
Alchemy and necromancy are my tools
with vengeance and sins i shall rule.

I will wipe out civilizations
and burn the brotherhood of nations
With Nemesis and Mars standing by my side
Overthrow,I shall,god's scared tide.

But injustice is not my way
let you and i work out something today
release my love from hands of death
or let the cosmos face my wrath.

Time Gone By

In a land far from our time
i once saw a woman blind
She struggled along a motley path
oblivious to death's dark wrath.

As she walked,she stumbled often
and each time i felt my heart soften
She had bruises,black and blue
in her heart she knew she was true.

Finally death came upon her
and held her tender hand
She smiled and cried
together to an unknown land.

I see her often in my dreams
walking,stumbling on life's path
never breaking down
moving along her own pace
celestial radiance on her wrinkled face.

She taught me something
of hope and happiness
and god's plan in everything
and lost joy of sadness.

Often i turn to her
finding myself in conflict
turning to the one gone by
and over the divided self fly.

Eros

Come lets go far and away
or you and i will forever sway.
To this maddening crowd
inherently crass and loud.

Visit a sunny meadow
lost in god's own shadow.
Jump and happily squeal
our souls slowly heal.

Take your hand in mine
as the stars above us shine.
The cool breeze in your hair
as we lie near a rabbit's lair.

Fragrant are the budding flowers
freshly minted from yesterday's showers.
The wind makes a curious noise
edging against your body's slender poise.

The sun's shadow now leaves
with solemn passion my breath heaves.
I look daringly in those gentle eyes
glumly darken the above skies.

I reach for your soft nape
amazed at its angelic shape.
You give me a strange delight
blushing furiously at my sight.

As the night slowly passes
i lay my head in your dark tresses.
Hypnotic and dazed in your charms
bliss,glee and joyful spasms.

Fireflies circle our tangled selves
you whisper an old tale of elves.
I quietly murmur a prayer
for you will always be there to care.

Dawn creeps,the night weeps
water from a brook gently seeps.
Young birds yawn and stretch
nibbling the food their mother's fetch.

Your face is covered with a dazzling light
its a divine and blessed sight.
The gods have finally smiled
and made you mine.